It is day 10 of the detox. 10 days since I quit smoking. Something that I was not anticipating - excruciating depression. They say nicotine and alcohol numb the system down. Perhaps I used them as a crutch. When nicotine is taken away, they say people begin to feel emotions and feelings that they were previously not aware of - that they had previously numbed with the drug. It’s the only explanation I have. I don’t know what to do with this. I don’t care if I ever smoke another cigarette again. I don’t care about much of anything right now. It’s Day 10 and I’m still here. I hope Day 11 is a little brighter.